Joseph " Jyoushu " Chen

HOLY SHIT !? HAHA

2009-12-28T09:16:00.002+08:00

Hello puny world.

Lol.

Okay anyway im about to go to sleep soon.
Just wanna update some stuff since it's been awhile since i blogged.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE
I know its late, but who cares.

I missed Steve Aoki, but its okay.
BLOODY BEETROOTS THIS NEW YEARS EVE PEOPLE !

Haha.
After that is Basement Jaxx next year.
God, two awesome shit right before my college starts. <3

Guess what im listening to now.
No you cant guess because you suck. ;]

It's the Theme song for the Power Rangers.
HAHAHA
It's fucking awesome.
HAHAHA

Also the Black Mages are quite good.
They do the soundtrack for all the FF series.
You guys should check them out.

Aaah, life. Life for 2009.
Just is so fucking awesome.
Like the year before.
And before.
*sense the sarcasm fuckers*

2010, closer to 2012. Lets see if it really comes true or not.
IF it really comes true. I swear to whoever i'll take any fast car.
And freaking race all over any road anywhere i go.
Just like the movie.
Then my life accomplishment is achieved :)

God i just remembered something.
College next year will be fucked up as usual -.-
@#$%^&*

Go listen to 12 Stones - World So Cold.
Then let me know if i should look towards 2010 or not. :)

HATERS ! YES ! I LOVE YOU

2009-12-08T04:13:00.002+08:00

HELLO, IM HERE BLOGGING AGAIN DUE TO TWO PEOPLE.
FORCING ME. THANKS ! <3
*Not a force, but still i take it as one >:D*

Anyway, first thing i wanna point out.
I GOT A HATER <3333

One thing about blogging, its good to see haters.
It amazes me, seriously.
To see them, being lifeless. Giving hate to peoples blog.
I know how you feel, you hate me, because im being awesome.
But still, you can't be me.
You know why ?
You don't have the one important life rule.
Being awesome :)
You are a lifeless, sad little worm. Commenting on people's blog.
Just because you can't be like them.
I won't ask you to get a life, like how other people point out to their haters.
But instead, i want you to come back, everyday.
Posting more hate in my chatbox <3
Okay? Love youuuuu <3

Putting that aside.
" Sushi " ask me to blog yesterday, or was it the day before.
I was tired, so yeah. sorry D:
So here, im blogging :P

" Sushi " is someone i met quite awhile ago. LOVES PHOTOGRAPHY.
Yes, she loves it. SOOOOOOO One day, ill take A really nice photo.
And post it up here :D OKAY?!
HAHAHA.

Today, was .. the usual. Seriously, nothing interesting happened. ROFL.
Well, a few days ago, bumped to someone i didn't expected nor would i wanna see.
But who cares. HAHA.
The past = past. so yeah, no point crying over spilt milk.

Oh, Rylana, your name. Is forever stuck in my head.
I can't and nor will i forget about it <3
HAHAHAHA.

Ryden. Damn nice name. I should use it one day.

Oh and thanks to Corey, for giving me like, damn alot of songs.
Enjoying it now :D
heh.

Today's post will be short. Because i want it to be. sooo
SUCK IT !! <3333

I'm back, or so i think i am.

2009-12-05T05:35:00.004+08:00

I'm back. Blogging again i guess.

Sometimes i wonder, if i should just blog, or not.
I'm so god damn lazy ):

Anyway, there's nothing much that happened since i left.
Except the fact that, my hair is longer :D

I'm going to keep my blog layout. It's still awesome.
Fuck u all who say it sucks D:
I shall devour you with my awesome-ness.

Oh god I'm addicted to facebook games again.
Castle Age, Mafia Wars. ROFL.
Free much.

Gonna continue my studies in January, lets just hope i don't get
lazy anymore. ):

I just found out my friends awesome second name.
It's Rylana.
That name, is so perfect, and awesome in many ways.

Like seriously.

I'm going to name my future daughter that.
If it's a son, then Ryden :D

<3

God it's 5:40am. Gotta try and get some rest -.-
Insomniac much?

Never been a straight forward person

2009-03-24T06:47:00.002+08:00

Cool.

Updated after so long.

Lmao.

Well ... I won't be updating like . everyday.

So don't be so .. keen to reading.
Though i doubt anyone does.

Anyway as some people know. I started WoW
Bought over a friend's friend Mage.

Level 80.

Almost geared.
But now is geared cause i helped that char to get :D

Putting games aside.

I started listening to Techno song's back.

Stuff like Darren Styles, Hixxy, Dj Sy and stuff like that.

Don't know why but i miss it so badly ):

It's going to be my birthday soon. D:

Planning what to do.
So we'll see how my 20th birthday goes :D

Well, might update soon. Hope so anyway :D

A new Dream

2009-02-22T11:09:00.002+08:00

I've been having the same weirdest dream every single night.

That ive been going around killing people.

Random people, and even people i know.

This all started in my first dream i had few weeks ago.

I came home into my bu4 house, which my parents sold it off long time ago.
Finding bloodstains all over the wall, floor and ceiling.
When i walked upstairs.
I found my parents, and my sister dead.
And i just woke up.

After that dream, ive been dreaming that i have been going around
Killing every single people that i pass.

This dream kinda tells me that in my life, i never trusted anyone before.
Even my parents.

Im not a psychologist who can tell what dream is what.
But i can roughly tell.

Right now, i'm going to change all this.
I'm going to start my new life today.

But last night, the dream i had. Was the most weirdest one.
I dreamed that i killed myself by over-killing people.

Meh it's hard to write it down.
Maybe if i roughly figure it out ill write it here.

Anyway. I am going to let everything in the past go.
And live life as it is.
Enough talk, im putting this into action.

(:

useless post ..

2009-01-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

I just wanna cry ..

Someone just save me .

Help me ...

Rescue me ..

Or ..

Kill me ...

<\3

New Year's Reso? Bah screw it.

2009-01-06T09:09:00.002+08:00

Remember my New Year's Reso ?

Well fuck it to the core (:

God made Grass, What we did is just improvise on it (:

So, fuck that. It's not drugs.
Im going to take it till i get sick of it.

.......

somehow i don't know what to say anymore.

Everything just went, destroyed.

Thanks life.

Fuck you..

Fuck you hard.

Fucking fuck...

2009? happy? wtf ...

2009-01-01T10:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEARS. ITS 2009

yes yes i know.

im depressed..

fuck this shit.

fuck 2009

fuck everything.

BAH

Another year gone. Another year spent

2008-12-22T07:43:00.002+08:00

Well, looks like its almost the end.
Going to reach 2009

I wonder what have i been doing this whole year.
Nothing much. Pretty much wasted another year.

Bah.
There are a few things i wanna change by next year.
Ain't gonna post it up here. It's for me to know myself.

Lately there have been changes with the friends i knew.
Old friends starting to change.
New friends starting to change.
Ah well. Their life. Not mine.

Even though they decide to leave me out of their lives.
I'm cool with it. Cause i'm just a burden (:

2009. A year where i decide.
1) To live my life as it is
2) No regrets whatsoever
3) Stop screwing myself up
4) Try and stop on drugs
5) Start working on my stamina
6) Cut down on ciggies

6 Things to do. I'm not even sure if i can accomplish any of it.

Oh by the way. For those who ain't gonna go out on the 24th December.
Stay tuned to Radiokul.com. Around 10.00pm. A surprise (:

P:S This is for some of the people out there. If you think it isn't for you.
Then good for you.
If you think you are one of them.
Then decide for yourself.

If you see your best friend, crying. In desperate help.
You would help right?
If that certain person. Hiding emotions and feelings.
All alone, without telling anyone.
Would you help ?
Of course you said you would. That's because you already figure out.
If you think that you can help that person.
Don't try at all. Because nothing can help.
Already living in his own world.
Already casted aside.
No friends.
No family.
Nothing.
Just himself, sitting in one corner.
All by himself.

You don't have to guess who that person is.
Because its futile.
Nothing can change the fact that has been set.
Since 2007.

Okay. Done for the day.
By the way. I don't think i'll be celebrating christmas or new year's eve anywhere.
Might be staying at home only.

(:

Good Day people.
And a early Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all

(:

aaaaaahhhhh * screams *

2008-12-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

hmm.. to actually define how my life right now ...

try and imagine a jet airliner. flying through strong winds and thick clouds in the sky.
with nothing but his control panel. and no radar.

yeap that's pretty how much my life should be described.

apparently lots of shits happening. and passed.
gonna be christmas soon. and i can still remember everything that happened.
with you last year.

im just going to stay home for christmas and new years eve. yes im a emo boy. so what.

bah. screw the update. be right back and post when i have the mood

gonna update. cause i was asked to. so u can update :x

2008-12-01T10:29:00.002+08:00

okok im updating :x

just got back from outings with friend. yes its 10:30am. ):

ah well.. gonna go sleep and rest now :x

my life is perfectly fine. i think

la da di da da :x

hahahaha

ok ok i updated !! <3

remember to use the align centre and arial font :x haha

ressurect ! oh old blog of mine. ARISE !

2008-10-30T14:49:00.002+08:00

yay. its alive. rofl

anyway im just gonna give a short update about my life :D

still breathing
still walking
still eating
still playing
still running

mmhmmm basically im still alive

okay so im gonna like go get my WGT tags today. hopefully i can collect em all
cause i don't have one members ic :/

guess what, im gonna go back on making music.

kinda miss it. haha. so yeah im gonna start back pretty soon.
so look out for more of my music :D
might be starting something new
hopefully it'll be good.

anyway im like gonna go now. and get the tags and shits.

oh yeah halloween this friday. don't know what to become. ARGHH !
ah well. bye <3

Close your eyes, and hold on tight.

2008-10-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

Starting from next month,

IM GONNA GO ALL OUT BABY !

Im gonna dance till the night comes and goes

Gonna drink and party all night long.

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So now this month, is a relaxation time. a month to just study ):

ah well. i just hope that my dad allows me to use any of the car.

So that i don't have to rely on other people anymore (:

If only you created something to make me stare in awe

2008-09-19T02:52:00.002+08:00

Is it to much to ask?
Just do something to grab my attention once,

You already did, but you gave it to someone else.

I thought i could react in time, but it seems that it isn't intended for me.

I'm just a narrow lifeless puppet in dire need of a master

I have a heart-shaped hole,
waiting to be filled.

If only you knew what it was for ...

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<\3 18092008

imgone, igaveup, idied

jubbawoo !

2008-09-13T03:52:00.004+08:00

I have been waiting, all of my life
For you to come along, and make everything alright
My body's shaking, right through my bones
So take me by the hand, please don't leave me here alone

And I wonder if you know just how I feel..
I Feel, Yeah..
And I wonder how i know if this is real..
Is real

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

I have been waiting, all of my life
For you to come along, and make everything alright
My body's shaking, right through my bones
So take me by the hand, please don't leave me here alone

And I wonder if you know just how I feel..
I Feel, Yeah..
And I wonder how i know if this is real..
Is real

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

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bought something nice today <3

i want to get new things soon ._.

ah well, thats all for now.

oh btw, HONG YEN GO STUDY :D

k babai :D

disco lights ! shining stars !

2008-09-11T21:39:00.001+08:00

I want to go out every night
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

I want to go out every night
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

I want to go out every night (ohh)
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

We can make it right

So get ready, tonight
We'll hit the party till the morning light
So let me hear your scream and shout
Just play the music, we can work it out

We can work it out

I want to go out every night (ohh)
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

I want to go out every night (ohh)
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

We can make it right

We can make it right

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boodiboodoo~

anyway a short update.

MID TERMMMSSSS

only two subjects, but still

MIDDD TEEERMMMMSSSSS

k i going study now.

actually go cha-gei but who cares !

wahaha bye

2008-09-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

Goodbye, sweet love of my life
losing you cuts as deep as a knife
I know I did you wrong and things weren't right
but I loved you girl, more than life

goodbye, sweet love of my life
I hope he loves you like I do
and everything turns out right
alone I'll stay with my memories of you
goodbye sweet love
goodbye and good night

6 days and still counting

blah !

2008-09-10T01:05:00.001+08:00

hmm.. gone now?

i miss it ... apparently ..

lol

~~5 days and counting~~

hmm.

2008-09-08T22:34:00.001+08:00

hmm... don't have that much to update..

nothing but listening to music and my own echo?

well i just hope everything turns out okay.

4 days.. and counting ..

<3 just plain <3

2008-09-06T16:27:00.002+08:00

When the rain falls down
I look up to the sky
I picture you up there
And all I do is cry

Being without you
Is like a dying pain
I’m here looking up
Searching for you in the rain

You’re looking down on me
Like a guiding star
I will always love you

Looking down on me
Like a guiding star
I will always love you
Wherever you are

I will always love you
Wherever you are

Being without you
Is like a dying pain
I’m here looking up
Searching for you in the rain

Since they took you from me
I have no reasons for life
You’re in the heavens above
Looking down with the light

~~is what my heart tells me, the truth?~~

Just what exactly is going on ...

2008-09-06T15:44:00.002+08:00

i don't know whats going on anymore...

its been... to long since i felt this...

maybe it's real ....

someone, just please ... ~~put me into a deep sleep~~ tell me what to do

i got nothing much to update ... yeah ...

so thats all for updating ...

~~maybe waiting isn't a bad idea afterall~~

i ish got tagged ._.

2008-09-05T00:13:00.002+08:00

1. The last person to tag you is?
Elaineeee

2. What relationship of you with him/her?
friends friends friends~

3. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?

She's cute
She's happy-go-lucky
She's funny
Understanding
Good photography skills

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.
uhm, nothing yet?

5. The most memorable words that he/she said to you.
nothing actually. more of a normal conversation.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
im not even sure. never thinked that far ! ._.

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
i don't think we will be enemies :D

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
answer same as question 6. tq ):

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is....
she stole my tic-tacs and finish it without telling me >:(

10. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
... buy cookies?

11. The overall impression to he/her is..
yesss she isss gooood~ :D

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
uhm, no idea? :D

13. The character for you for yourself is?
emotional, depressed... person? lol

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
uhm.. emo? lol ._.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
no one, just myself would be suffice

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
I'll love you no matter where you are, and i appreciate being there for me. <3

17. Ten people to tag:

Fibiee
Patricia
Audre
Zheng Yi
Kazaf
Jessica
WeiTing
Adrienne
Wei Ching
Jia Linq

18. Who is number 2 having relationship with?
fai fai fai~

19. Is number 3 a male or female?
femaleee~

20. If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
uhm, both females and.. awkward?

21. How about number 5 and number 8?
wtf ! NO WAY ! impossible ! wait, i think can. meh don't ask me

22. What is number 1 studying about?
her churchh !

23. When was the last you had a chat with them?
todaaaay :D

24. Is number 4 single?
yeap yeap yeap

25. Say something about number 2
she is my sister, and i just wanna annoy her :D

The Wicked End !

2008-09-02T02:17:00.003+08:00

Ladies and Gentleman, i have officially screwed myself up (:

Okay, so what if i screwed myself up. All i did was mess up my sleeping timetable ._.
Well i gotta fix it up soon. If not ill really be a vampire.

Anyway, I can't continue my CS training till my dad goes off.
Apparently he was suppose to go off last week, but now he say this weekend.
Arghh no idea when will he leave.

I should crown myself " King of Darkness"

Okay lame..

Anyway, should i continue my guitar lessons?
Or learn myself?
Aaah decisions.

Btw Elaine, ignore the stupid girl disturbing you in your blog.
She ain't worth your time (:
Just relax and chill~! :D

I really need to fix up my sleeping schedule
So im gonna go sleep now !

Yes, sleep now. Be a human !

K bye bye

Countdown wasn't much, the usual day as always

2008-08-31T03:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MERDEKA PEOPLE !

51 years, be proud for heaven's sake !

:D

Anyway today was pretty much as all the merdeka eve celebration.
Tagged along, and yeah, kinda depressing but who cares !
Used to it already. So basically its just a normal day (:

Anywayyy tomorrow holiday ! yay !
Well i mean Monday, which is tomorrow, since today is sunday D:

Kk anyway, this post won't be that short, nor long.
Woke up before 6, got ready and went out !
First went to Sunway Pyramid, bought a really nice formal shirt !
That makes 3 formal shirts !
Never had any striped ones so i just bought it !
Black though. ):

Anyway after that decided to go to The Curve.
Spent like, less then an hour there watching fireworks then ciao !
Left to Choy Kee, at DJ to eat. Since we're hungry.
After that went to some place at Bukit Tungku.
Man there are some really really nice houses there.
Expensive though, );

Oh, and i saw a mansion !
It's like a friggin castle ! no serious !
My friend says its owned by the richest dude in Malaysia.
Well for a house that big, im guessing.
Got lot's of bodyguards there, well never seen one and thats what he told me.
No one ever comes out either !
Also i don't know if its over the limit,
but he says there are snipers to !
Snipers ! SNIPERS ! Well who knows since its the richest dude in Malaysia.

Anyway after that came back home.
Well a normal day anyway.
So i guess thats all for the update.

See you guys soon ! (:
*ill try and update as much as possible. Thanks !*

a short and simple post before i go out

2008-08-30T18:25:00.002+08:00

i think my heart just went thump yesterday.

could be either i was drunk

ah well

OFF TO MERDEKA !!

well not the dataran merdeka there.

more of a countdown anywhere.

lolol bye bye

*maybe yesterday was the real thing (;*

I shall say this once, last and for all !

2008-08-29T04:21:00.003+08:00

God-damnit u psychotic rumour spreaders !

For crying out loud im single ! im not in anyway coupled with anyone.

Even though im not proud of saying this
*i really am a sadcase aren't i*
BUT IM FREAKING SINGLE YOU MIND EATING RUMOUR ADDING PEOPLE !

Please do not believe the nonsense around you, only trust my blog ):

When im taken then ill post it up on my blog, untill now so far no one
i repeat NO ONE got my heart kay?

Well there was this one person BUT STILL ITS OVER !
So stop bringing up rumours, its annoying.

So for now, please, stop with the rumours and please shut up kay?

Thank you.. seesh

one world, one mind

2008-08-29T00:04:00.004+08:00

You know one thing i hate the most? Thinking of a new title everytime i blog

Damn that's the most annoying thing ever !!
*rants*

Anyway moving along, today my post will be describing an emotion.

And that emotion will be depression, no wait i shall cancel that.
Talking about depressing stuff on my blog is a no-no ! ;D

Anyway the emotion, wait i don't think i should classify as emotion
Nevermind, i shall just call it LIFE !

Yes people i shall be talking about life :D

Okay here goes,
Ahem.

Life is just an abstract form of emotions. People tend to live on with emotions
Just imagine one day, if we don't have emotions at all.
Emotions just cease to exist. And everyone will never feel sadness,anger,
and or any other emotions !
Then maybe the world will be a much happier place :D

But then again we will miss out on the importance of life. See? Anything to do
with emotions, gotta do with life, or vice-versa ! So in conclusion,
LIFE IS EMOTION ! :D

Anyway here's a brief explanation on " Life "

is a state that distinguishes organisms from non-living objects, such as non-life, and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism and reproduction. Some living things can communicate and many can adapt to their environment through changes originating internally. A physical characteristic of life is that it feeds on negative entropy. In more detail, according to physicists such as John Bernal, Erwin Schrödinger, Eugene Wigner, and John Avery, life is a member of the class of phenomena which are open or continuous systems able to decrease their internal entropy at the expense of substances or free energy taken in from the environment and subsequently rejected in a degraded form.

Well that's the meaning of life ! :D

Well for a in-depth meaning. Here it is :D

The meaning of life is the philosophic concept about the purpose and significance of human existence. It is the subject of much philosophic and scientific study, and much theologic speculation.
Usually, this existential query is expressed interrogatively:

What is the meaning of life?

Why are we here? For what reason are we here?

What is the origin of life?

What is the nature of life? What is the nature of reality?

What is the purpose of life? What is one's purpose in life??

What is the significance of life?

What is meaningful and valuable in life?

What is the value of life?

What is the reason to live? For what are we living?

Philosophically, logical positivists ask: What is the meaning of life? and What is the meaning in asking? To the question: If there are no objective values, then, is life meaningless? Existentialism posits that the person creates life's meaning for him- and herself, thus rejecting Nihilism, and Humanists seek an explanation answering: I'm here, I exist, now what?

Theology being about the human psychologic need for a supernatural ideal, Friedrich Nietzsche says: God is dead, and Martin Heidegger asks: If God, as the supra-sensory ground and goal, of all reality, is dead; if the supra-sensory world of the Ideas has suffered the loss of its obligatory, and above it, its vitalizing and up-building power, then nothing more remains to which Man can cling, and by which he can orient himself.

Religion's answers to: What is the meaning of (my) life? include a moral demand helpful in assuaging one's grief with death. Unlike religion, mysticism and spirituality require direct experience, in order to learn that life (existence) is an unfolding awakening that transforms understanding to insight; hence, the ultimate goal in life is being (living) according to said mystical or spiritual insight — grasping, thereby, the meaning of life, of all of life, and of reality, itself.

Anyway, back on track. I've already explained whats going on so please enjoy this boring yet looong post kay? :D

So that's it for my post today. Please don't doze of okay? i Did lots of effort on doing this !

Well then i shall bid all my readers farewell !

Untill next time (:

A new start, i don't care. IT BEGINS NOW !

2008-08-25T03:12:00.002+08:00

Thank you for being such a friend to me
Oh I pray a friend for life,
And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?
Oh you're everything to me
Thinking all the time how to tell you what I feel,
Contemplating phrases....I'm gazing at eternity,
I am floating in serenity...

And I am so lost for words
And I am so overwhelmed

Please don't leave just yet
Can you stay a moment please
We can dance together
We can dance forever

Under your stars tonight
We'll live and breathe this dream

So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep
And please pass me some memories
And when I fall you're underneath
1000 broken hearts, carried by 1000 broken wings

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Like i said in the post. A NEW START !

i don't care how many times i've said that but now i really mean it
It's gonna be a new Joseph from now on.

so yeap (: wish me luck.

oh enjoy the lyrics, its from the song in my latest playlist.

Enjoy :D

Dicomposition of a Moderate Living Life

2008-08-24T05:46:00.004+08:00

Tell me a story 
Of how it's meant to be
Give me a reason
Cause I don't wanna leave

And I wonder
As I look into your eyes
And I wonder
If I need a reason why

Slide away...

You make me slide away
No one makes me feel quite like you (quite like you)
You got me sliding today
Only when you do the things you do

Slide away...

Tell me a story 
Of how it's meant to be
Give me a reason
Cause I don't wanna leave

And I wonder
As I look into your eyes
And I wonder
If I need a reason why

Slide away...

You make me slide away
No one makes me feel quite like you (quite like you)
You got me sliding today
Only when you do the things you do

Slide away...

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Well this is what you get for bringing in two types of people.
a post-moderate psychopath for creating hardcore,
and a sweet innocent girl, wanting love.

in the end you get those lyrics. HAHA !

what did u think i was about to say?

Oh for those who just recently visited my blog, HI !
and to those who are my loyal fan's (even though i know u ain't)
Wazzapening ;D

Anyway i think im gonna start updating from now on.

Kinda hoping this blog wont die ! k from now on no more emo blog posts !

Happy post-psychotic apocalyptic posts will be put up !

Anyway ill start updating tomorrow. This will be the start of a new beginning (:

Chao ! :D

Puffy and Me <3

Commentless

2008-08-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

okay screw u people :P

anyway added 4 new songs to my playlist, just click next to listen.

nothing new.

yeap nothing new

tata

This year's WCG was a total crap

2008-08-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

all i can say is this years wcg is so unorganised. screw the CS marshal's

ahhhh no shirt ):
ah well

hope that WGT is much better, well lets see about it.

i dont have pics for the WCG, but the photographers there took alot of pics of my team ;D

hope i can steel some of it and put it on my blog, facebook ;D

okay so college starting later
*yes i woke up to blog, because i cant sleep*

sigh, college, WGT, what can this world do more to me !

at least college will be much easier, i hope.

well i dont havee that much to update, so lets wait till the photo's do come out then i post it here (:

well ill update another day, tata :D

<3 ): WCG !!!!

2008-08-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

Okay, WCG is near.

My team joining.

Stress, cause not yet ready.

Wish us luck ):

long time didnt update

2008-08-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

okay a short post. because im lazy to blog for anything.

insomniac
psycopathic selfish bastard
trying to 100% stop smoking
needs a new desktop
new sem starting soon
needs a second phone
wants a mouse bungee

okay thats all for the updates.

An Update

2008-07-23T03:22:00.003+08:00

Okay so here's an update

passed my driving exam
missing someone
in love with someone
in desired mood for ice cream
semi-depression
still loves his old playlist
still listens to screamo
is fucking dead

there are the few updates. wahahaha

ok then im gonna go sleep. tata

gladurbacksafely,<3you

i knew i was right

2008-07-20T02:31:00.003+08:00

i somehow knew it would happen

ah well.

anyway long time didn't update.
so i'll give a short update.

depressed
anxiety
insomnia
bored

above are my few factors im having :P

im gonna cha gei nonestop at home. damn nice

oh btw it still bleeds.

k thats all for updates
bye

you never did right?

2008-07-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

i always listen to screamo type songs when im emo.
it always cheers me up
to know that i can scream to a song (:

Anyway tomorrow team meeting.
wai wen out, team messed up
*meh*

i guess we'll see how it goes tomorrow

no mood to blog that much.

ttyl

takeallthepainawayandpleasetellmeyouloveme

mrm done, socio left.

2008-07-13T02:12:00.002+08:00

As my title says, i only have one more exam to go !!
*yay*

Anyway friday night went to Euphoria, was freaking awesome. Even though its crowded, still awesome
Crowd was better then the last time i've been there
Music even better
Atmosphere, F*ING GOOD !!

You all should go if you get a chance.

im still having a headache from yesterday so im gonna go rest up for awhile and study.

will post you all up on how is the socio exam for i fear it'll be freaking hard ):
oh and my driving exam postponed to freaking 24th, not this monday !!
ARGHH !!! and i thought i can settle it as soon as possible.

Ah well, ill post you all up on further stuff tomorrow or someday when im not tired or headache

imstillwaitingfortheonechance

Anyway bye blog <3

msn being a bitch, internet being a hoe, personal life being a slut ):

2008-07-11T01:28:00.003+08:00

Yes, i can't sign in msn, and it took me FREAKING 1 hour to get to this new post composing thing.
yes, its being a bitch.

I found a new hoe today, and its called the F*CKING INTERNET !
seriously, i hate streamyx, i hate tmnet, i hate malaysia for its crappy internet.
it still <3 malaysia for its nasi lemak though oh and mamaks ;D

anyway today did my consumer behaviour exam.
it was alright. but still awesome :P
managed to did all the important ones, left the unimportant ones
well didnt left it i still did it.
i did left out a few questions cause i don't know.
seriously i think it'll effect my marks ):

anyway tomorrow im having my MRM exam (Media Research Method) so wish me luck.
again im gonna leave you with another spaceless rant :P enjoy :D

ithurtsbeinglonelyallthetimeknowingthatmyheartcallsyourname
nomatterhowlouditcallsitcantseemtofindyou
immoreofanemptyglassareflectiontoyounow
mightbemywayofthinkingbutmaybeitsjustme
ireallywishedyoucouldtellmewhatyouwantinsteadofkeepingmehanging
beinghurtdaybydayisntreallythatgreat
wishingyourcouldbebymysideinmydownmoments
butitsmoreofadreamthenareality
imrantingnowbecauseireallyfeelunwanted
andunneededbutijustwannaignoreallfactsandjustwaitforyou
eventhoughyouunintentionallyhurtmeistillwontgiveuponyou
becauseyoumeantheworldtome
illgiveyoumyallandmyheart
justtellmethatyouwantitandyoullgetit
iflyfl

okay done :D ttyl blog <3

Read with Caution

2008-07-10T01:54:00.005+08:00

Okay im gonna type nonstop without spacebars just only for this post.
It's to rant out, because my other ranting blog cant rant anymore, meh.
If you don't wanna read, you can just ignore the post and continue with your own stuff.
Okay here goes.

imreallyhurtrightnowandidon'tknowwhatodo.eachtimeiseeyoumyheart
skipsabeat
ijusthopethatthetimewouldcomewhereuwouldappreciatemeandloveme
ireallywishyoucouldjustlovemeforwhoiamandwhatiam
ireallyreallyfuckinglyloveyoualotandwhy
imalreadywaitingandwaitingandwaiting,andimstillwaiting.
ireallydon'tcarehowlongimjustgonnawait.
eventhoughmyheartstillhurts,imgonnawaitandunderstandhowyoufelt
waitingseemslikeforeverbutimjustgonnaletitbeforever
causeireallyloveyouenoughtowaitforeverything.
ifly

Okay ranting done. :D

New song ?

2008-07-07T22:34:00.001+08:00

i added a new song to my playlist in my blog, it'll appear first.

So if u are wondering what song is it
Its System of a Down - Lonely Day.

Here's there lyrics :D

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
This day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
A day that Ill never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And its mine
A day that I'm glad I survived

uhuhu !
my new song ;D

Untitled Document ... :X

2008-07-07T21:53:00.003+08:00

itaintmyjurisdictionorprioritytochangewhatyouwantyourlifeisyours

Sup people, update !!

Im currently trying to decide to which tourney to join, the ICCG or the WCG .. meh
Plus ill be having my Sociology presentation tomorrow, and my Radio Broadcasting exam.
):

Then this wednesday gonna go for my last driving lesson, then next monday taking the exam ):

!! My life is so hectic right now !!

istillmissyouasmuchasidid;why

Nuff said, there aint anything interesting in my life anymore ): im bored as hell !!
i guess thats all i should blog about, nothing much though :/

Well now im off to rant in my ranting blog, its private so you all cant see !! HAHA !!
:P

Well ttyl lovely blog<3

i found 2 bucks :O

2008-07-06T11:54:00.004+08:00

okay people, a short post !

i found RM2 on the table.

*YAY !*

now im 2 bucks richer.

i like my new music player :D

i find that people don't come my blog anymore ):
sad case for me ):

Come people come ! i don't care if i don't update, just visit :P
well im gonna start updating soon i guess, since there's nothing much to do online
besides spamming people on msn.
So im gonna add blogging ! again :/

well, ill update again later tonight.
ttyl blog <3>

btw i made 3 new songs, actually 1.
the other 2 are remixes of the same one.
so if u want ask me on msn ill send.
cant upload here cause imeem is being a bitch ! D:
kbyefornow

No Updates ! ):

2008-07-05T23:13:00.002+08:00

Sorry people, i got lazy to update.
Kinda because i have no mood to blog at the moment.
So you gotta bear with me if i never update.

Well overall i'm just waiting, waiting for an answer.
Like i said, i don't care how long didn't i?

Well ill let a song entertain you in my blog.
Here's the Lyrics !

Dear friends of this academy
oooh romeo is bleeding to death
To see a friend bleed to death, what for
Some kind of metaphor that I cant see?
So I'll drink until I see it.

This sky will make me sick
So I'll give up on you
I'll give up on this
This sky will make me sick
So I'll give up on this
I'll give up on you

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

So you want to hold me up and bring me down
Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down
I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you
and I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine..

It's all mine..
It's all mine..
It's all mine..

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine..

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine...

Well that's all for the update. Hope to blog again soon ):
Ttyl :/

Radio ended ! More stress to come !

2008-06-21T20:51:00.003+08:00

Hello people !! Finnaly an update ! woohoo !

*cheers*

So whats up people ! Missed me? ;P
Anyway we finished our radio broadcasting already ! woohooo !!
No more stress and what not. But there are still other assignments ): meh
Anyway here are the pics of the radio broadcasting day.
Won't blog much because i dunno what to write ):
Enjoy the pics~

*posing while changing music*

*Steady sial*

*wee !*

*no comments lol*

*our dj's Dj Bob and Dj Boy*

*all of us ! the rest downstairs promoting*

Well, thats all guys !!
ttyl blog <3

blogless-days

2008-06-18T13:27:00.001+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates
ill update once i have the mood back.
kinda no mood to do anything ):
sorry !!

i'll be away for awhile, as in not blogging till i get back my mood, which should be soon D:
ah well, ttyl <3

Awesome Day , Awesome Me , Awesome Music

2008-06-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

Hello peoplee !!
Didn't update yesterday so im sorry ):
Well yesterday i spent most of my life sleeping so yeah nothing to report there sir.

Okay today, went to curve with some friends, watched kung fu panda
*yes 2nd time*
there was this weird event going on infront of cinieleisure, funny though.
Live concerts by small kids, events by small kids. From some private school.
I dunno where they get all the cash to do this.

It's for some disease awareness, forgot the name but its something lower then down syndrome.
Ah well, it's like make you dumb and stupid, but not as serious as down syndrome.
Well the event i dunno what's that, but their live concert, SUCK !!
I appreciate their guts and such to put on a concert, but at least play better.
And yes i know you guys did your best, but it sounds like you ain't doing anything.
And there was this one band where you can't hear the bloody guitarist at all.
Both of them, and you can see them jumping around like some monkeys.
Ah well, kids this days.

Oh i bought my A4Tech X-700 keyboard already. Awesomeness !!
And i finnaly love a quote from kung fu panda ,
" There is no charge for awesomeness , and attractiveness "
Ah love that quote.

And im in love with some j-rock music already, someone help me ):

Well its late now, so i guess ill sleep. Ttyl blog <3

Radio Room and Stuff :O

2008-06-14T18:52:00.003+08:00

Hellooo peopleeee !!
Late update again. Don't blame me. Had no mood to update yesterday.
Anywayyy yesterday was kinda fun in college. Apparently.
First time ever though.
*yes college is boring*

Anyway went for the recording session for our radio assignment.
Did some recording and some stuff.
After everything is doneee
We decided to play around and take some pics ! ;D

Anyway after that, went to curve with wai wai , ate T.G.I.F :/
*if im not mistaken it's called Thank God It's Friday, i myself don't know D:*
Watched Kung Fu Pandaaa !!

It's kinda funny, wait not kinda. ALOT of fun. Haha
After that went for my rojak friendly at subang.
Lost 2 maps, won 2 map.
*thanks to someone keep calling*

Sigh this made me no mood at all. Cause it was an easy win at first. Sigh.

Well here are the pics. Have fun Seeing them.

lol at not ready pose

loh sin, khairul and me !

Stoner of the Week

Rocker ! Poser ! and uhm , big smile?

Everyone hates me ): *wai wai and Melissa*

Well that's all for now, ttyl blog <3

Hated ...

2008-06-13T03:36:00.002+08:00

Well it's official, im hated .

Got nothing else to blog about.

Im depressed.

Get away.

Did some changes to my blog.

ttyl <\3

Yesterday's and Today's Post

2008-06-11T14:50:00.005+08:00

Well i apologize for not posting up yesterday because it was a really hectic and busy day !
Well went to class as usual
*yes i did went to class*
After class, found out that my parents are going up to genting, so i asked sem if he wanted to come.
So fetched him and came over to the house.
Ate subwayyy ;D

After that, my parents already left, so me and sem went to blitz for awhile, met pp (Patrick)
and Aiman there.
Had dinner then went back to my place. This time pp followed.
We went to Kayu and eat dinnerr *yes again*
After that went to buy the DVD called " Superhero Movie "
It was funny, because it's all the heroes such as Fantastic Four and such all mashed into one comedic movie !

After the movie, we talked awhile, then decided to go for a bicycle ride, i found the rollerblades.
Decided to test em and i can't do it = =
So i gave em to sem and i just rode the bike.
Feel's kinda good after a long time didn't ride the bike.
After that we stayed in the house awhile, and played PS2
Wanted to go swimming but it was raining .__.

Well after that the rain stopped awhile !
So we went and swim for awhile. lol
*it was still raining abit though*

After that we went back to our place, and ordered MCD breakfast !
Then after eating we wen't to sleep, untill 2:00 something PM
*happening ain't it*

So yeahhh, thats what happened basically today.
I'm gonna go for my driving thing today, so i'll update it again later tonight !
Sorry guys no pics, really sorry ):
Well im off now, ttyl blog (:

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Okay back again, tis an update !!
Im going to take my freaking drivers exam !!
*freaking finnaly*

It's on the 30th of June.
*yes this month*

Anyway wish the best for me !
Again i got no pictures .. meh
And again, nothing much happening
Except my parents going Genting again.
Apparently parents love Genting
What's with the casino..
Im never going there EVER !

Okay then, ttyl blog <3>

I cut my hair !! D: and random moments ):

2008-06-09T19:48:00.003+08:00

Yes folks, i finnaly did it . I cut my hair !!
*cries*
Anyway, i won't post up any pics about my hair for now. I'm gonna let it be a mystery to you people :D
Yes im mean, so what . BITE ME !!
*bites*

>_________>

Anywayyyy im so dead tired, had no mood to go to class today so i skipped it.
Yes people i skipped class again. I just didn't wanna go, SO WHAT !!!
Right now im sooo addicted to j-rock/j-pop/j-whatever music.
It's as awesome as tic-tacs + teh o ais tambah johnny walker !
*note ; do not try and mix it, its just a saying. if you happen to die, i wont be responsible for your death so don't come and haunt me .___. *

Adrienne came back from camp today, though she ain't replying me on msn >___>
ah well, she must be tired.
I officially SUCK at Dota !!
*note ; Dota is short form for Defence Of The Ancients , for more info go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Defense_of_the_Ancients (Thanks wiki) *
Oh and the note is for all you people who doesn't know what dota is. Please step out of the cave and embrace the new era plskthxbai

I want my iTouch... I WANT IT !!!
Dad said he's gonna try and get it for me when he gets back from his next trip.
He's departing in like, next week .. and i don't know for how many months.
*note ; don't ask me what my dad works as, im lazy to explain. I'll just say he finds the oil in the ocean and orders people around to dig it *

Oh and Wai Wen emo today :D Thanks to Patrick >____>
Next time people hungry PLEASE JUST GO AND EAT !!
I don't care if its like 5 more minutes or what, people are dying ):

I don't wanna skip class anymoreee !! Someone pleaseee helppp meee ):
I don't wanna get barred ! Meh ):
I'm going to start going to class tomorrow, i don't care already !
I won't skip anymore. Even if my life depends on it !

Yesshhhh no pics today though, didn't take any. Well i guess thats all i have to blog for today :D
I'll ttyl oh blog of mine~

<33~

Another Sleepless Night

2008-06-09T03:42:00.006+08:00

Looks like its another sleepless night for me, i seriously wonder when can i sleep properly again.

Kinda stressfull you know, getting little sleep.
Plus so many crappy things are going in my head, that i wished it just go away.

After this few months, it seems that its really really hard to just let go. Maybe i just can't.
But as life say, we have to move on. So lets move on shall we ;D
*wishes he has tic tacs now*

Anyway, if im not mistaken, tonight will be the 67th night im having the same thoughts again.
Someone just shoot me please
*shoots*
Anyway, i need to find something to do when i come online, its really boring ya know.
I know i have to update my blog, but if there ain't anything interesting happening,
why bother to update? Haha !
*laughs at own joke*

Okay anyway this are a few of my photoshopped* pictures(*i think thats how its spelled)
Anyway be in awe of my creations !!
*laughs maniacaly alone*

*note : Btw it says CURE not CUTE

*note : combo work of me and my friend

*note : an effort by me :D

*note : Final work of first attempt to photoshop

Please note that all above are my first try to photoshop, i still don't know that much.
Im still trying to learn !!
*I don't even have a teacher*
):

Well i guess that's all i can post for now, maybe later once im back from college i might have
better news to tell :D
Well till then, ttyl :D

Okay !

2008-06-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

Okay, ill just stick to this layout, since im lazy to update. It's kinda nice though.
Btw, my msn is going nuts, i can't even sign in !! ARghh !! Woe is me !!
The kdu Prelims moved to the 30th of June, so yeah .. meh-ness.
I need something to blog about, but it seems i don't have any ideas. lol

I also need to get the keyboard asap, before the stock runs out~ haha
Anyway ill blog about tomorrow, since today i got no idea.
TTYL !!~

New Blog, New Beginnings?

2008-06-08T18:53:00.001+08:00

New blog freaks, yes i know its new, so bear with me
i made the layout as good as possible,
so im gonna try and make a new one later ..

Well nothing to post up about , this blog might die or not , i don't know
but i just hope this time people do come and see = =