HOLY SHIT !? HAHA

Hello puny world.

Lol.

Okay anyway im about to go to sleep soon.
Just wanna update some stuff since it's been awhile since i blogged.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE
I know its late, but who cares.

I missed Steve Aoki, but its okay.
BLOODY BEETROOTS THIS NEW YEARS EVE PEOPLE !

Haha.
After that is Basement Jaxx next year.
God, two awesome shit right before my college starts. <3

Guess what im listening to now.
No you cant guess because you suck. ;]

It's the Theme song for the Power Rangers.
HAHAHA
It's fucking awesome.
HAHAHA

Also the Black Mages are quite good.
They do the soundtrack for all the FF series.
You guys should check them out.

Aaah, life. Life for 2009.
Just is so fucking awesome.
Like the year before.
And before.
*sense the sarcasm fuckers*

2010, closer to 2012. Lets see if it really comes true or not.
IF it really comes true. I swear to whoever i'll take any fast car.
And freaking race all over any road anywhere i go.
Just like the movie.
Then my life accomplishment is achieved :)

God i just remembered something.
College next year will be fucked up as usual -.-
@#$%^&*

Go listen to 12 Stones - World So Cold.
Then let me know if i should look towards 2010 or not. :)

HATERS ! YES ! I LOVE YOU

HELLO, IM HERE BLOGGING AGAIN DUE TO TWO PEOPLE.
FORCING ME. THANKS ! <3
*Not a force, but still i take it as one >:D*

Anyway, first thing i wanna point out.
I GOT A HATER <3333

One thing about blogging, its good to see haters.
It amazes me, seriously.
To see them, being lifeless. Giving hate to peoples blog.
I know how you feel, you hate me, because im being awesome.
But still, you can't be me.
You know why ?
You don't have the one important life rule.
Being awesome :)
You are a lifeless, sad little worm. Commenting on people's blog.
Just because you can't be like them.
I won't ask you to get a life, like how other people point out to their haters.
But instead, i want you to come back, everyday.
Posting more hate in my chatbox <3
Okay? Love youuuuu <3

Putting that aside.
" Sushi " ask me to blog yesterday, or was it the day before.
I was tired, so yeah. sorry D:
So here, im blogging :P

" Sushi " is someone i met quite awhile ago. LOVES PHOTOGRAPHY.
Yes, she loves it. SOOOOOOO One day, ill take A really nice photo.
And post it up here :D OKAY?!
HAHAHA.

Today, was .. the usual. Seriously, nothing interesting happened. ROFL.
Well, a few days ago, bumped to someone i didn't expected nor would i wanna see.
But who cares. HAHA.
The past = past. so yeah, no point crying over spilt milk.

Oh, Rylana, your name. Is forever stuck in my head.
I can't and nor will i forget about it <3
HAHAHAHA.

Ryden. Damn nice name. I should use it one day.

Oh and thanks to Corey, for giving me like, damn alot of songs.
Enjoying it now :D
heh.

Today's post will be short. Because i want it to be. sooo
SUCK IT !! <3333

I'm back, or so i think i am.

I'm back. Blogging again i guess.

Sometimes i wonder, if i should just blog, or not.
I'm so god damn lazy ):

Anyway, there's nothing much that happened since i left.
Except the fact that, my hair is longer :D

I'm going to keep my blog layout. It's still awesome.
Fuck u all who say it sucks D:
I shall devour you with my awesome-ness.

Oh god I'm addicted to facebook games again.
Castle Age, Mafia Wars. ROFL.
Free much.

Gonna continue my studies in January, lets just hope i don't get
lazy anymore. ):

I just found out my friends awesome second name.
It's Rylana.
That name, is so perfect, and awesome in many ways.

Like seriously.

I'm going to name my future daughter that.
If it's a son, then Ryden :D

<3

God it's 5:40am. Gotta try and get some rest -.-
Insomniac much?

Never been a straight forward person

Cool.

Updated after so long.

Lmao.

Well ... I won't be updating like . everyday.

So don't be so .. keen to reading.
Though i doubt anyone does.

Anyway as some people know. I started WoW
Bought over a friend's friend Mage.

Level 80.

Almost geared.
But now is geared cause i helped that char to get :D

Putting games aside.

I started listening to Techno song's back.

Stuff like Darren Styles, Hixxy, Dj Sy and stuff like that.

Don't know why but i miss it so badly ):


It's going to be my birthday soon. D:

Planning what to do.
So we'll see how my 20th birthday goes :D

Well, might update soon. Hope so anyway :D

A new Dream

I've been having the same weirdest dream every single night.

That ive been going around killing people.

Random people, and even people i know.

This all started in my first dream i had few weeks ago.

I came home into my bu4 house, which my parents sold it off long time ago.
Finding bloodstains all over the wall, floor and ceiling.
When i walked upstairs.
I found my parents, and my sister dead.
And i just woke up.

After that dream, ive been dreaming that i have been going around
Killing every single people that i pass.

This dream kinda tells me that in my life, i never trusted anyone before.
Even my parents.

Im not a psychologist who can tell what dream is what.
But i can roughly tell.

Right now, i'm going to change all this.
I'm going to start my new life today.


But last night, the dream i had. Was the most weirdest one.
I dreamed that i killed myself by over-killing people.

Meh it's hard to write it down.
Maybe if i roughly figure it out ill write it here.

Anyway. I am going to let everything in the past go.
And live life as it is.
Enough talk, im putting this into action.

(:

useless post ..

I just wanna cry ..

Someone just save me .

Help me ...

Rescue me ..

Or ..

Kill me ...

<\3

New Year's Reso? Bah screw it.

Remember my New Year's Reso ?

Well fuck it to the core (:

God made Grass, What we did is just improvise on it (:

So, fuck that. It's not drugs.
Im going to take it till i get sick of it.

.......

somehow i don't know what to say anymore.

Everything just went, destroyed.

Thanks life.

Fuck you..

Fuck you hard.

Fucking fuck...

2009? happy? wtf ...

HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEARS. ITS 2009

yes yes i know.

im depressed..

fuck this shit.

fuck 2009

fuck everything.

BAH

Another year gone. Another year spent

Well, looks like its almost the end.
Going to reach 2009

I wonder what have i been doing this whole year.
Nothing much. Pretty much wasted another year.

Bah.
There are a few things i wanna change by next year.
Ain't gonna post it up here. It's for me to know myself.

Lately there have been changes with the friends i knew.
Old friends starting to change.
New friends starting to change.
Ah well. Their life. Not mine.

Even though they decide to leave me out of their lives.
I'm cool with it. Cause i'm just a burden (:

2009. A year where i decide.
1) To live my life as it is
2) No regrets whatsoever
3) Stop screwing myself up
4) Try and stop on drugs
5) Start working on my stamina
6) Cut down on ciggies

6 Things to do. I'm not even sure if i can accomplish any of it.

Oh by the way. For those who ain't gonna go out on the 24th December.
Stay tuned to Radiokul.com. Around 10.00pm. A surprise (:

P:S This is for some of the people out there. If you think it isn't for you.
Then good for you.
If you think you are one of them.
Then decide for yourself.

If you see your best friend, crying. In desperate help.
You would help right?
If that certain person. Hiding emotions and feelings.
All alone, without telling anyone.
Would you help ?
Of course you said you would. That's because you already figure out.
If you think that you can help that person.
Don't try at all. Because nothing can help.
Already living in his own world.
Already casted aside.
No friends.
No family.
Nothing.
Just himself, sitting in one corner.
All by himself.

You don't have to guess who that person is.
Because its futile.
Nothing can change the fact that has been set.
Since 2007.


Okay. Done for the day.
By the way. I don't think i'll be celebrating christmas or new year's eve anywhere.
Might be staying at home only.

(:

Good Day people.
And a early Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all

(:

aaaaaahhhhh * screams *

hmm.. to actually define how my life right now ...

try and imagine a jet airliner. flying through strong winds and thick clouds in the sky.
with nothing but his control panel. and no radar.


yeap that's pretty how much my life should be described.

apparently lots of shits happening. and passed.
gonna be christmas soon. and i can still remember everything that happened.
with you last year.

im just going to stay home for christmas and new years eve. yes im a emo boy. so what.

bah. screw the update. be right back and post when i have the mood

gonna update. cause i was asked to. so u can update :x

okok im updating :x

just got back from outings with friend. yes its 10:30am. ):

ah well.. gonna go sleep and rest now :x

my life is perfectly fine. i think

la da di da da :x

hahahaha

ok ok i updated !! <3

remember to use the align centre and arial font :x haha

ressurect ! oh old blog of mine. ARISE !

yay. its alive. rofl

anyway im just gonna give a short update about my life :D

still breathing
still walking
still eating
still playing
still running

mmhmmm basically im still alive

okay so im gonna like go get my WGT tags today. hopefully i can collect em all
cause i don't have one members ic :/

guess what, im gonna go back on making music.

kinda miss it. haha. so yeah im gonna start back pretty soon.
so look out for more of my music :D
might be starting something new
hopefully it'll be good.

anyway im like gonna go now. and get the tags and shits.

oh yeah halloween this friday. don't know what to become. ARGHH !
ah well. bye <3

Close your eyes, and hold on tight.

Starting from next month,

IM GONNA GO ALL OUT BABY !

Im gonna dance till the night comes and goes

Gonna drink and party all night long.


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So now this month, is a relaxation time. a month to just study ):

ah well. i just hope that my dad allows me to use any of the car.

So that i don't have to rely on other people anymore (:

If only you created something to make me stare in awe

Is it to much to ask?
Just do something to grab my attention once,

You already did, but you gave it to someone else.

I thought i could react in time, but it seems that it isn't intended for me.

I'm just a narrow lifeless puppet in dire need of a master

I have a heart-shaped hole,
waiting to be filled.

If only you knew what it was for ...

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<\3 18092008

imgone, igaveup, idied

jubbawoo !

I have been waiting, all of my life
For you to come along, and make everything alright
My body's shaking, right through my bones
So take me by the hand, please don't leave me here alone

And I wonder if you know just how I feel..
I Feel, Yeah..
And I wonder how i know if this is real..
Is real

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

I have been waiting, all of my life
For you to come along, and make everything alright
My body's shaking, right through my bones
So take me by the hand, please don't leave me here alone

And I wonder if you know just how I feel..
I Feel, Yeah..
And I wonder how i know if this is real..
Is real

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

'Coz I want you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me
'Coz I need you to save me,
Just please save me,
Save me

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bought something nice today <3

i want to get new things soon ._.

ah well, thats all for now.

oh btw, HONG YEN GO STUDY :D

k babai :D

disco lights ! shining stars !

I want to go out every night
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

I want to go out every night
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

I want to go out every night (ohh)
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

We can make it right

So get ready, tonight
We'll hit the party till the morning light
So let me hear your scream and shout
Just play the music, we can work it out

We can work it out

I want to go out every night (ohh)
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

I want to go out every night (ohh)
I want to dance under the discolights
I wanna be with you every night you want me too
I wanna be with you, we can make it right

We can make it right

We can make it right

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boodiboodoo~

anyway a short update.

MID TERMMMSSSS

only two subjects, but still

MIDDD TEEERMMMMSSSSS

k i going study now.

actually go cha-gei but who cares !

wahaha bye

Goodbye, sweet love of my life
losing you cuts as deep as a knife
I know I did you wrong and things weren't right
but I loved you girl, more than life

goodbye, sweet love of my life
I hope he loves you like I do
and everything turns out right
alone I'll stay with my memories of you
goodbye sweet love
goodbye and good night


6 days and still counting

blah !

hmm.. gone now?

i miss it ... apparently ..

lol


5 days and counting

hmm.

hmm... don't have that much to update..

nothing but listening to music and my own echo?

well i just hope everything turns out okay.



4 days.. and counting ..

<3 just plain <3

When the rain falls down
I look up to the sky
I picture you up there
And all I do is cry

Being without you
Is like a dying pain
I’m here looking up
Searching for you in the rain

You’re looking down on me
Like a guiding star
I will always love you

Looking down on me
Like a guiding star
I will always love you
Wherever you are

I will always love you
Wherever you are

Being without you
Is like a dying pain
I’m here looking up
Searching for you in the rain

Since they took you from me
I have no reasons for life
You’re in the heavens above
Looking down with the light

is what my heart tells me, the truth?